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Name: Jade
Birthday: 3/14/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: God <3, dancing, singing, musicals, movies, playing african drums, talkin/ conversation, cleaning, Key Club, Friends, My Sugars, Family, Running, Class Office, smiling, Bible Club, Swinging, Sleeping in a hammock, Church (Youth, Drama/worship team, an ex-quizzer), Music Club, shopping, Big sunglasses, Christian music, hugs, Nutella, guitar, pilates, pillow fights, buttered noodles, Lit. Mag, missions trips, standing in the rain Swing music and swing dancing, Roxbury!!!, going down the up escalator, roses, star gazing, tennis, Peanutbutter, oldies, Irish/Celtic culture, cuddling, laughing, writing poetry, worship, laying in the grass,"Apples to Apples", "string bling", eating grilled cheese, thinking, motorcycle rides, shoes, ridding rollercoasters, concerts, earings, staying up all night, smilies, seeing the sun rise, being a leader, going on drives, drinking water, taking pictures, "FINKing"...
Expertise: laughing
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
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AIM:  Dads angel 314
Member Since:
8/18/2005
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| yet another post that most likely no one will read..
what to say..
hmm 2007 (nah, I dont feel like reflecting)
2008:
I dont really like resolutions because who can remember to keep them.
I cant.
so I'm not going to make any. well, not really.
however, there is much to change- things that will take time and patience etc
about this being sick thing-- maybe i should take care of myself (on the breaks too)
@ school I do a good job of it- because i know i cant get sick. theres no time for that! but when I'm home, all that goes down hill.
when I'm at school I need to continue to have more concentration. i need focus. I need priorities, time management, relaxation, healthy habits, responsible tactics and more time alone with God.
Break has been good for me: i have learned alot about myself and things that i wish I could have practiced earlier.
I'm reading a few good books: The Purpose Driven Life and an interesting book about the lies we tell ourselves about dating. The new reading material has helped me to reevaluate my focus in life. I'm feeling much stronger than I ever have. I'm feeling that for once I am strong in awareness of who I am to God even when He seems far from me. and that is the test. He will draw away from us not to harm us but to help us to rely on Him more. I realize that I dont need to know EVERYTHING. But having a purpose IS everything.
I'm very excited to see where this year takes me. what trials and amazing things come my way.
To another country.
To academic excellence.
To new friends.
To mending old relationships.
To being honest whatever the cost.
To learning.
To being healthy.
To convictions.
To a new beginning.
I'd toast to that.
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| I wonder if things will be different this time... second chances.. second trys... second wishing.... or, a reoccuring nightmere... hanging on to nothing. be nice to my heart. please. | | |
| When all Hell's coming at me, all of HEAVEN is inside me.
If I follow Him, He will never give me more than I can handle.
and a side note: "There's someone for you. When its time, God will introduce you to 'em."- Grammy
HOPE
I'm captured by His love.... I've been captivated.
I'm a captive. .. by
HIM
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| I sat beside the yellow breeches today
listening to the water trickle and flow
and let the water trickle and flow from my own eyes.
I let it all out.
I cried until I was dizzy
and my eyes the color of the stupid tomatos I eat every day. I just wanted a friend. Just wanted to give up. Just wanted God to be closer. Just wanted some answers. In the end, I was really just suppose to come home. geez, I'm such a cry baby. | | |
| Reminiscing ...
oh how things change. ...
in a year.
not a tear. not anymore.
only One who makes everything perfect.
only One who makes me better than before.
only One who fixes loneliness.
this is really going no where. :shrugs:
"let waste time..."
which is what my study partner is doing. 1:30am and shes just getting started studying chemistry which she has no idea about .. its kinda frustrating me. me on the other hand finished (well almost) a paper thats due wednesday and i get all this stuff and have an entire day to study for the big exam tomorrow (I mean today- this) evening. and yes i prefer laying in the hallway to study, especially when the study room lights wont come on and the only way to block out the distractions of girls climbing walls and watching TV is to plug my ears with music.
"....and just forget the world"
and the rumors ... its been a year since the beginning. i don't even care about, i don't even know :clears throat: anymore.. so what do i care? i dont .. i just hope, i just wish, i just want.. it to not be true. i should have never. we were so. never regret.
"..just lay here"
and study. and move on.
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